yaaadeeedaaaaaa....

Firstly, sunday outing was okay. I marked it as my last outing at the moment. =D I am too lazy to upload the pictures anyway not much pictures too so its okay. We watched "confession of a shopaholic" and I think is greattttttttttt the ending is kind of like awwwwwwwwwww when the guy actually bought the scarf(sp?). Stupid rodney who spoilt my mood of watching the movie ok wait not spoilt la... hahah cause somehow I cried over one part of the movie and well the movie is not a sad movie but yeah somehow I am one of those who cried over movie. Then he started looking at me and yeahh... HAHAHA! I am just wondering how would he know I mean like the cinema is dark and I did not cry out loud or whatever. no sign at all. okay whatever enough about that sounds like I am talking crap -.-

Yeah, back to school. feeling? stress to the max. I have no idea why when I got back to school during this second term all the stress of the studies are on me. I had actually kind of limiting myself from getting online but it does not seems to work out well. LOL! as usual. Alright I guess thats all for now. I am here to blog just for fun.

I think I will get sick soon because I start sneezing already which I assumed it to be a sign of getting sick? =p

P.S: I am brokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee nowww really brokeeeee I had no money nowwww so I shall not go out or buy anything now. hmm...


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It is like 4 mins to 3am but I still don't feel like sleeping... okay lets not go emo FIRST!

I enjoyed the party just now at kus's. Well it is a councillor gathering(sounds bais?) not many turn up but still is enjoyable... I am being loud as usual. Don't mind me... I haven't upload any pictures yet since I am not in the mood to do so but some of them are up in fb so check it out if you feel like it. =DD Did not take much pics actually so yeah.

My holiday mission of slimming down fail again... how sad is that. LOL!

Anyway came back from kus's house is like already 11+ I showered and all and came online until now. Yeah is like my last night to sleep late. lol what an unhealthy thinking. lol Anyway I was browsing through fb and came across one of my old friend which brought the past all out to me. I'm missing it although is just 2 good times but I do miss it a lottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt =( . It actually gave me a little hope AGAIN but does not seems so..... =( I managed to get some news about it but yeah no help at all. lol. How I wish I can turn back time like seriously... or maybe I should think that at least I used to have it on my hand. But I seriously do miss it a lottttttttttttttt =((((((( All I was thinking now is like turn back time.... which is impossible -.- Anyway after all I don't think is worth to think back. I should just miss the good time only. =DD

Anyway I just did the "are you ready for a relationship" in fb. The quiz are good man. I mean the result for mine is so true...

"Its not your time... you have a long way to go. By being in a relationship you are only hurting yourself and the damaging the other person. Take a step back and prioritize your life. You cant be with someone right now because you still have so much to learn about life. Being in a relationship because your afraid to be alone is not healthy. Please take this time and start over. Be strong for yourself. Give a little more, learn to enjoy your free time. Be thankful for the things already in your life and let go of the things that are out of your control. Your a good person... have faith. There is someone out there waiting for you to be ready. :)"

I was seriously wondering when will my ready time to be... I was really curious about my upcoming relationship as in you know an official one. okay I know I sounds desperate but I think it is pretty normal. so yeah I am not ready. Thats about it I shall go back listen to my emo songs...

I am no longer excited for tomorrow outing... WTH!! Am I going to be emo again??? #^@!^#&@!^#&*@^# I promised I won't be emo so I shall control my emotions... damn....................................................................

P.S: I am okay if you are worrying =D

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WALALALALALALALALALALALALA.................

HAHAHAHHA!!! okay I felt like an insane now for I don't know why. Just here to blog for fun. It will be definitely a meaningless post so think twice whether you wanna continue reading it. LOL!!

I discovered why I had that difficulty in breathing last night and just now... hmm... but again don't worry I am okay now. lol I THINK it is a really sudden rush of worries?? Just now my mind just started flash through about my tonnes of works to be done by monday I guess and suddenly the rush make me have the symptons like last night again...

Time to destress.... Is a saturday night.... ;) Hope is a success =DDD


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Now I am in the mood to blog so here I am. I am currently having this weird difficulty in breathing but no worries I am okay if not I won't be here to blog. I don't know why is just like suddenly it felt so heavy and yeah difficult in breathing or whatever. okay enough about that.

Where did I last stop update you guys? hmm... anyway nothing much happen during this holiday though. I was glad that it was a short one in the sense that it would not took me some time to gain back my study mood but yet I felt this holiday is a little too short. lol I seriously can't think back what had happened if you guys don't know I suffer from short term memory lost. LOL!

On tuesday I guess I went down to miri with my mum. I hate the long journey but oh well the journey going there is okay since my mum and I had a little chat here and there but on the way back I was too tired so I slept.


Here's a picture of me vaining in the car. lol

Then on thursday celebrated ron's birthday at his house but no picture. Sorry.

I am looking forward to tomorrow and sunday. =D

Thinking that school is starting is a little sad. Okay I don't mind to go school la since I can see my friends and all and update each other with stories *ahem* ;) but I hate the boring lessons man. My gawd!! gonna die especially wednesday like double english? No offence but I find english lesson boring and sometimes bio and others when I am not in the mood to study? Okay not saying that the teacher boring ok? lol

Now here is a question for you guys. Guess what skeleton is the picture below. ewwwwwww
















And the answer is lizard I guess. I am not very sure too but ewwwwwwwww I found this at my radio there and I was like shit wth is this. ewwwwwwwwwww !@*(&(*@$^*&@# ok whatever it is. Lizard gave me phoebia now. When I look at this I seriously got freaked out. lol And got once there is this small lizard baby I guess who seems to be in lost with direction and simply run here and there and ran towards my leg. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww and then just now suddenly a lizard randomly drop luckily did not kena me. ewwwwwwwwwwwww *!@#&*@(#^&*@^#&*@

I had a good chat with mr.sad past few days. (Nah blog about you liao and is good one. =p)



P.S: I miss the sport school in sg! =(

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR RON!! =DD

See nice leh me special post for you. More kiasu than you ahh 4 wishes. HAHA kidding =p No picture because no individual picture.

Anyway sorry guys I am too lazy to blog maybe some other time when I am motivated. Nothing much happening so yeah. =DD

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I am currently having moodswing now... I felt a little pissed off,annoyed,excited and everything... and felt like punching people.... gah!

Anyway finally I am in the mood to blog after 5 days. lol Anyway nothing much happen I guess. Recent events are the non-uniform day or what you call casual day? It was overall okay. It was more fun than expected as we got new 4 sexy hot girls classmates. HAHAHAHA =pp Though it was a little bit over or maybe other ppl would give negative comments but whatever I did enjoy and we did enjoy. That is part of enjoying life. I guess I will just post up some pictures,the rest will be in fb check it out if you want. =DD


this is like the best pictures of all.


and there you go. The sexy "girls" HAHAHA =pp


and don simply think pls I just find this pic nice =D







Then finally we had our holiday.Actually to me I don't see this as a holiday at all. Is like 10 days only well of course it is better than nothing but there is nothing much diff except for the fact that I could sleep longer. It felt like I had not been sleeping properly for so long. lol Is like tuitions tuitions tuitions

Not to forget I got partiessssssssssssssss =DDDD and which means I would get broke too. I mean I am seriously broke now. I had a headache with guy presents now. Any suggestions? lol And I am broke I am broke broke broke broke..... =SSS I left like 20 bucks? =SS

I can't think of anything to blog about now so I guess thats all. Anyway happy holidays to everybody out there. Do have a quick break. But I don't see how form 5 life can enjoy =S after holiday would be june o lvl then holiday then mid year then mock then o lvl. Time flies.... I just can't wait for o lvl to be over but it had to go through a lot... =SS

P.S: I don't know whats wrong with photobucket. I rotated the pictures.

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Cross country was on saturday. I did not participate which I kind of regret a little bit. I definitely got darker again -.- whatever! Tomorrow is a monday meaning school resume as usual. zzzzzzzzz I just can't wait for holiday though I know I would be bored but I just want to stay at home. =DD

You don't know how it feels
when i first heard it
It's just like another
emobreakdown

I hate it for
It is always a complication
I didn't know why
if only god could tell me

Don't leave me hanging there.
Sometimes,All I wanted to say is
"leave me alone"
However, your ignorance do hurt me


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I think I should just get over it. I wasn't as concerned as I used to anymore which I think is a good thing. I find no point in being so concern about it for I still get the same thing at the end. I am blogging a little bit about it just for fun =DD Call me mean or bitch or whatever. If the impression of me in your mind had spoilt, I am sorry then. I know what I am doing and I am very sure that my this decision is definitely correct.

Came to realise
Everything had changed
Including me and you

Complication approached
It seems so close
Yet so far
I gave up
For that is what you want

I wonder does it worth
If that makes you happy
I would free you
As you have your freedom

A used to mind a lot of me
Had gone
A used to be “close”
Had gone,too.

Although it kind of hurt
But is up to your decision too
But please still remember
I would always be your listener
If you ever think that you still need me.


This so called poem just came into my mind for no reason. LOL!! I know is sucky but is just my third one. There is no dedication as all is mixed inside. Till here.

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I am in the mood to blog now but I have nothing to blog about. sigh!

I just heard a shocking news just now which make me scream like crazy for few minutes. Was totally out of control. Okay don't ask me what because I won't tell. But nothing so big deal about it la so no worries if you are worrying. lol Is just again another decision to make. =SS

Here are some pictures which I wanted to upload for so long but was too lazy. It was the pictures taken when I went to KK last year around xmas time so yeah quite long ago. But I find the scenery damn nice, don't you think so? =DD I find myself looking so mature in this pictures I think is because of my bag. lol





Wonders and wonders and wonders keep going on my mind these few days....
I wondered what advise you got...
I wondered what are you thinking...
I wondered what are THEY thinking...
I wondered do you even think about it...
I wondered do you even care after so many things...
I wondered why do you always over react...
I wondered why can't you just think a little bit more...
I wondered how many times can you lie to side a person...
I wondered how many times can you persuade a person eventhough it is wrong...
I wondered how many chances are you wanting for...
I wondered what are you waiting...
I wondered does it make sense...
I wondered does it worth...
....

BUT just saying that I do not care anymore because I live my life... =DD I will leave everything as it is if I see no hope in doing it.

merccccccccccccccccccccccccccccc!!!!!!!! *&!@&*@^*#&^&#^@*& (ok not swearing at you but I hope you know what I mean. LOL! )

Come and go and come and go.... At least it still comes and not go and go only. Ok I felt so lame now. whatever =p

P.S : This is not an emo post AT ALL!! =DD
P.P.S: I just love my this new blog skin a lot. =DD
P.P.P.S: Guess all you want since I know some of you might be guessing =p


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Yes new skin! I decided to have a new change because the previous one is getting boring and because I find this skin actually brighten my mood up. =DD I hope it does the same thing to you all out there =p I was trying to figure out the code and I actually made it. yay me. ok wahtever it is. lol

So far results are okay. Upcoming one I don't think would be anyhow good. We will see how is it.

Complicated again? I won't let myself be there. I learned to control. =DD

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First and foremost I would like to thank everybody for the wishes and present and for turning up to my b'day party =DD I was kind of surprised with that big number of wishes I got from people especially some unexpected one.

Anyway I celebrated my birthday on wednesday with some people. It was okay. I got a "guess" white watch from them. Is WHITE!! a watch that I wanted. so yeah thanks a lot =DD





And on thursday, I celebrated with my friends. I should thank my mum. LOL!! I did not want to celebrate at first so yeah is kind of last minute. So thanks a lot for those who actually turn up and make the party a success. I hope it did not bored you guys. Well, I did enjoy a lot. =DD


The surprise from them.


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THEN, on friday which is my actual birthday. I was sleeping half way and my mum came into my room and said wake up quick! someone is waiting for you downstairs. I was like HUH?? I was kind of blur I mean like what stranger looking for me? ^o) and so I quickly brush my teeth first and went down. And I saw adeline wong came towards me giving me present and then I saw merciana and wan shing with the cake. LOL! Thanks a lot guys! It was really a surprise.





I got lots of expensive present I think. LOL!! The camera I am using now is a present from my brothers. Then another perfume from my cousin. And that watch. The other presents I got are nice,too. Thats about it I guess. The other pictures are in fb. I am too lazy to upload all. =DD

As I promised I would upload some picture about my valentine present so here it is. Just one. lol



And I wanna said a little thank you to some of my friends who accompanied me to go through the suffering 3 days of exam. =p You know who you are ;)
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Sometimes, I find people being a bit annoying or they just can't stop looking down at people. So what if they are from that school. If one day you entered into a bitch school does it mean you are a bitch too? Don't judge something as a whole. Different people have different personality.

It just don't feel right if you created the gap in between! But if that is what you want. I could only obey.

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AHEM!!!

This post is specially for some of my friends out there who called me unique and want me to sing happy birthday song to myself (A)(A)(A) LOLOLOL!!!!

So,


Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me~,
Happy birthday to me.

HAHAHAHAHH!!! ok I know is lame but whatever. I am kind of crazy and high is like 1.33am. I think I would only be asleep like 2.30 or even 3? LOL!!! Anyway happy birthday to jeremy kenjiro and tan hsien ley!!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDD

I shall stop here first.
To be continued =p


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