It is like 4 mins to 3am but I still don't feel like sleeping... okay lets not go emo FIRST!

I enjoyed the party just now at kus's. Well it is a councillor gathering(sounds bais?) not many turn up but still is enjoyable... I am being loud as usual. Don't mind me... I haven't upload any pictures yet since I am not in the mood to do so but some of them are up in fb so check it out if you feel like it. =DD Did not take much pics actually so yeah.

My holiday mission of slimming down fail again... how sad is that. LOL!

Anyway came back from kus's house is like already 11+ I showered and all and came online until now. Yeah is like my last night to sleep late. lol what an unhealthy thinking. lol Anyway I was browsing through fb and came across one of my old friend which brought the past all out to me. I'm missing it although is just 2 good times but I do miss it a lottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt =( . It actually gave me a little hope AGAIN but does not seems so..... =( I managed to get some news about it but yeah no help at all. lol. How I wish I can turn back time like seriously... or maybe I should think that at least I used to have it on my hand. But I seriously do miss it a lottttttttttttttt =((((((( All I was thinking now is like turn back time.... which is impossible -.- Anyway after all I don't think is worth to think back. I should just miss the good time only. =DD

Anyway I just did the "are you ready for a relationship" in fb. The quiz are good man. I mean the result for mine is so true...

"Its not your time... you have a long way to go. By being in a relationship you are only hurting yourself and the damaging the other person. Take a step back and prioritize your life. You cant be with someone right now because you still have so much to learn about life. Being in a relationship because your afraid to be alone is not healthy. Please take this time and start over. Be strong for yourself. Give a little more, learn to enjoy your free time. Be thankful for the things already in your life and let go of the things that are out of your control. Your a good person... have faith. There is someone out there waiting for you to be ready. :)"

I was seriously wondering when will my ready time to be... I was really curious about my upcoming relationship as in you know an official one. okay I know I sounds desperate but I think it is pretty normal. so yeah I am not ready. Thats about it I shall go back listen to my emo songs...

I am no longer excited for tomorrow outing... WTH!! Am I going to be emo again??? #^@!^#&@!^#&*@^# I promised I won't be emo so I shall control my emotions... damn....................................................................

P.S: I am okay if you are worrying =D

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